I am an adult (51 yr old), a mom, and very normal other than I love to eat white sticks of chalk all the time, since I was a little girl. What is weird, is that when mymom found out, whe told me that it was ok, because she also did it when she was little, and said that I would grow out of it soon. (but I didnt) lolI also used to eat other things like paper, pencil erasers, and even clay(I tried to find the cleanest kind that I could find lol...Well, anyway, it was a secret habit that I was embarrassed andashemed of. But I did not get constipapted, instead, I got diarhea, and lumps in my bowel movements, thats all. Maybe I am deficient for iron, or calcium, Im not sure, but I started taking extra vitamins, and mineral supsplements, daily, but still cant stop wanting to eat chalk. It is strange to want a certain "brand" of chalk, but someitimes, I just have to taste it, and either love it instantly, or have to spit it out, cause it tastes so terrible! It sounds funny now, but after reading this colum, I dont feel so bad anymore, knowing how many other people have the same craving like me! Sometimes I feel like Im the only weird one in the whole world doing it! Well, I am glad that it is non-toxic, and cant poison me, but I am sure that eating too much can cuase some kind of disfunction, or reaction, so I will try to stop it, or at least eat only a tiny bit once in a while! I think that all people have some kinds of addictions, or fetish, or something, which they creave, and the body wants, so, anyway, I am glad for me, its only the chalk, since I dont do anything else, or have any kind of unhealthy body,
but yes, maybe its the stress, and I do get stressed out alot, and maybe it comforts me,ok? (like a pacifier) lol for babies! Well, life is full of stress, and I try to keep a relaxed, and calm life, regardless of what goes on out in the real world, I try to keep a safe little spot for myself to escape to, and to feel protected, and where nobody can hurt me, or force me to do things which I dont want to do,ok? I want to control my life, and my mind, and have a pure and clean house, life, mind and heart, and be right with GOD, so, I hope that eating chalk is not a sin?
It seems like jsut about everything we do can be a sin, even if it is not part of the original 10 commandments, they always say something is still sinful, so, I just try to not be exposed to evil, or bad things, and stay pure, and sinless, thats all. Thank you for letting me write about this, and helping me learn more about eating chalk. thanks
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